"I envy the tree, how it reaches but never holds"

The last 7 months have been incredible.  Getting to know Liam is such a gift.  He changes every single day and I look forward to all the new things he is learning.  It also breaks my heart at the very same time knowing he is growing up fast.  This is parenthood, so I'm told.

"Things that matter come and go, but being touched and feeling life move on, we tend to cling and hold on, not wanting anything to change.  Of course, this fails and things do change.  Often, we are stubborn enough to go after what we think is leaving, trying to manipulate and control the flow of life.  Of course, this fails, too.

We can't stop life from flowing.  So we are left with feeling what was and what is, and we call the difference loss.  But all the clinging and holding on only makes it worse.  Now, new things come, and some of us anticipate the loss and just let the things of life go by without feeling them at all."  (Mark Nepo)

It's only natural that I'm holding on to Liam's youth and innocence with a closed fist.  But when clear enough and open enough, I try to let things in, to let the moments touch me.  I try not to poke and pull at them as they move through.  It doesn't eliminate loss, but when trusting enough to let this happen, I am life a flag on a breezy day blowing in the exact direction the spirit wants me to be.